Tasukete Kudasai

Dilemma

Its between letting your father married again

(Which I don't agree on)

AND

Staying with him so that I can take care of him and the house

(Which make him doesn't need to get married again)

I know my father well

I don't think he should marry someone else

That person will only be a burden to him

To us

Especially if that person is a widow and have kidssss

Bad me huh?

Naaa.

I think of the future of my father.

I mean not here in this world but hereafter.

Tasukete kudasai :(

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So Long Anong :'(

This entry is dedicated for someone dearest to me, Anong, my grandpa.

Last Thursday, 4th February 2016 at 7.10 pm, he left us. After being sicked for more than a month, Allah took him from us. Allah took him to a better place for him to rest. Its a heartbreaking when my sister called me saying Anong is no longer alive :'(

Anong or other people called him Tok Nor got his nickname Anong from us, his grandchildren maybe bcoz we are too lazy to call Tok Nor. We make it shorter by combining it, that is why it became Anong.

 

He helped my parents in raising us. He and my arwah nenek, Tok Bibi pampered and spoiled us so much. Well that is what grandparents do to their grandchildren. Their house is near to ours. Only 3 minutes away if travel by car. I can say that they came to see us everyday, especially after they had done their teaching. Yes, they were ustaz and ustazah. They gave us money for school. They took us out for shopping especially during Hari Raya. Yess, they helped a lot in raising us up. That is why I owed them much.

 

Back to my grandpa story. He is a very patient man I've ever known in my entire life. He never raise his voice. He is a man who constantly saying "thank you" for every single deed people did to him, even little ones. Even when he was sick and could not walk, he was hardly troubled us. I knew there are times when he was very sick but then he never complained about it to us. It was easy to take care of him. He just ate what we cooked and if it's good he will complimented it but if it's not good, he hardly critics on it.

 

He is the best grandpa to me even we are not blood-related. I love him so much that I cried when I knew he was sick when I was in Form 2. And now he really left me. I pray to Allah to take good care of him there and placed him among the pious people as he is a very pious man during his lifetime. Zikir is like a song to him. May Allah bless his soul. Aamiin.

 

Thank you Anong for your sacrifices and kindness. We owe you so much. I love you Anong.

 

Al-fatihah.

 

In memory ~Haji Nor Bin Haji Salleh~

 

 

 

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The Best is Yet to Come!

Sometimes I feel kinda jealous with girls who have a very polite attitude, words or everything in her.

AND

I'm jealous with those who can be istiqamah in their journey seeking for Allah's blessing.

I ain't like that.

I'm a harsh girl.

AND

Kind of a bad girl too.

Sometimes I do want to change and be that kind of girl.

But that just doesn't feel right, it feels like that wasn't me.

AND

When the bad me is showing her bad/dark side, sometimes I couldn't resist it.

Later on in future, I'm gonna regret it

Yes, I know that I'm gonna regret doing those bad things but then as I said,

its very hard to resist.

"Why should I try to be someone else when I can be myself?

Maybe I'm not at my best state yet as the best is yet to come."

-FS,2016-

Be grateful dear Syakirah.

Be like your name.

Grateful.

:)

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Another Wishlist to Achieve. Hope So :P

Morning!

So hari ni nak bercerita pasal wishlist seketul Syakirah.

Biasa la as a normal human being, I do have a list of stuff to achieve in my life.

Basically, I really need to get my driving license. Lol. 25 y/o already but still didn't have driving license. Loserrrrr!

Whateverrrrr :p

Then I would like to get braces. Yes2, I also want to get pretty smile bila tangkap gambar. Boringgg lah senyum tutup mulut je :p

But braces price is soooooooo expensive. Sobsob.

After I able to fulfill these two most important wishlish, then only I will go for my next wishlist which is TRAVELLLLLLLL!!!

I really want to go travel around the world but yaaaa, money constraint. So lets kumpul duit first. My dream place that I reallyyyyyyyy want to go is Japan and New Zealand. I love to see other countries' culture, environment. I love nature. So definitely I will be going to places with beautiful scenery and view.

Kahwin is not in my wishlist? Yaaa, not yet ;p

I'm trying very hard to put kahwin thing out from my head for now. Lets just focus on my career, getting a permanent job in a conducive environment company. Plus, I don't even have 'anyone' right now. So, lets justttt ignore first this kahwin thing :D

On top of those wishlists, definitely I would like to secure a good job lah. Need to work very hard for that. Trust Allah. He will help you :)

Well I guess that's all for this morning. See ya :)

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Confusion Hits Me!

Hi!

I'm still in confusion bout my own life.

What kind of job should I go for.

Should I just stay at my current company?

Or should I go and look for something more somewhere else?

I just don't know how to decide.

It is too tough to make this kind of decision.

Should I try working in my field?

But I'm afraid I could not adapt or will be stressed out working in that kind of environment.

Plus, I'm comfortable working in my current environment.

Dilemma hits me hard.

Please help me!

I hope my current company offers me a position after this.

I'm not that picky bcoz somehow I like to work here :)

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This is LIFE!

Nothing much to update.

Many things happened lately.

People come and go.

Well, that is life.

Either you like it or not, that is the reality you have to face.

Coz in the end, everyone will leave. Everyone will die. Nothing lasts forever in this world. Only Allah is eternal.

But then, people always forget that they themselves will somehow leave this world too. People only tend to realize on others leaving time but not theirs. 

Well, that shows how people love to watch over other people instead of watching themselves. Right?

So, let us watch over ourselves more.

OK? ;)

Maybe thats all for now.

Will update later if have time, space and internet of course :p

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Finally, an IIUM Alumni \(^.^)/

Assalamu'alaikum and haiiii!!!

Alhamdulillah all praise be to Allah SWT

Finally FARAH SYAKIRAH BT MOHAMED ZUBIR has SUCCESSFULLY graduated from Kuliyyah of Engineering, International Islamic University Malaysia.

I just can't believe it

I did it!

I never thought that I will be this happy

Monday, 09112015 | Session 6

Convocation ceremony for seketul She!

Yayyyyyyy!!!

Thank you Ya Allah for giving me this opportunity.

I can't asked You more

:')

It's truly a blessed to graduate after all the struggles and pain during 6 years of studying

Engineering is not a joke man

It was really tough

Well at least for me :P

I know my late mak will be proud of me

I know she always will

She was very happy when she sent me to IIUM for the first time

And I believe she will be extremely happy to see me succeed in my engineering course

I may not be a bright student during my university life but I did have a mission.

I want to get at least once the Dean's List and guess what? I managed to get it on my very last semester in IIUM and it was my extended semester. Luls

Glad that I extend. If not I wouldn't be able to achieve my mission. Luls

Thank you Abah for believing in me when me myself has lose hope to continue with this engineering course.

Thank you so much for not giving me pressure on my results

Thank you dear siblings for your support, financial or moral. Thank you so much. Thank you for listening to my pre-post-exams-stress stories :P Thank you to my bil too for sending and picking me up beginning and end of every semester :D

Thank you Anong and arwah Tok Bibi for your financial support.

Thank you to my other family members, P.Long, M.Su, M.Ngah, Mimi, Aunty Naa, P.Su and everyone else.

Thank you to my bestiesssss. Without them I don't know if I can handle the stress during my university years. Thank you so much for your presence. I love all of you lillah. May Allah bless everyone of you and protect you from any harm. Thank you Ya Allah for sending me these people. They are truly a bless for me :')

Thank you to my lecturers too. Without their guidance and knowledge, I won't be wiser like this. They are my inspiration. May Allah bless them :)))

This Bachelor of Engineering (Manufacturing) (Hons) is for all of you!

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Apa Khabar Iman?

Iman itu tidak akan sentiasa berada di level yang sama

Iman itu ada turun naiknya

Iman itu perlu dijaga, disemai

Penjagaan itulah yang akan menaikkan levelnya

Maka suburkanlah iman kita dengan solat, puasa, zikir, munajat, bacaan al-Quran, ibadah-ibadah sunat yang lain

Hidup tanpa iman

Tunggang langgang lah ia

Binasa lah ia

Di dunia mungkin terselamat

Namun di akhirat tiada yang selamat daripada dihisab oleh-Nya

Hidup tanpa iman

Tidak tenteramlah jiwa

Hidup tanpa iman

Diri akan dikawal nafsu

Tidak kenal erti redha

Tidak kenal erti syukur

Tidak kenal erti tenang

Lihat semula ke dalam diri kita

Hanya diri kita

Tidak perlu melihat diri orang lain

Apa khabar iman kita?

Subur ataupun layu?

Masing-masing boleh mengenal level iman diri sendiri

Tiada yang mengenal diri kita selain kita dan Allah

Di mana kita meletakkan Allah dalam hidup kita?

Sedalam mana kita mencintai-Nya?

Sejauh mana usaha kita dalam mencari redha-Nya?

Tepuk dada, tanya diri

Apa khabar iman?

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Yoshhhhhh!

I need some motivation to start writing my Final Year Project report

I am so lazy even to start

Dear She,

You are going to finish your study exactly in a month

Put your efforts in completing the report and study for your 2 more papers

After that you can just walk away from here

You are going to miss everything you did during your degree life just as you missed your primary and secondary life

Right?

Just do your best for these 3 more subjects

3 last subjects for your very LAST YEAR, LAST SEMESTER DEGREE

After this you are going to get a job

Move to next phase of life

But at the time being, just do your best to finish this degree

OK?

Ganbatte She!

You know you can do it right?

Make Abah & arwah Mak proud of you

You will be the first child in your family to get a degree scroll plus its an Engineering course!

Be proud of yourself, She

You know how you fear failing this course, right?

Now you just have to put a very little efforts (at least) just to complete this course

Just 3 more subjects to go out of  50++ subjects

Yosshhhhhhh!!!!!

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First Day of Final Exams for Final Semester. Horayyyy?

I have done 2 papers for my final exam

Maths on morning while Japanese language on evening

I am totally exhausted after the Japanese language exam

The Maths exam was OK

It was just my brain that could not think properly

Maybe my brain has reached its limit as I've been studying non stop for the past 3 days

That was the first time I guess I studied that hard

LOL

I am proud of myself

For Maths paper I can say I had put enough efforts & now let Allah decide what grade should I get

:D

For Japanese, hehe

Lets see what I'll get later

I really really hope my results for this semester is better than last semester or maybe similar

But I know this semester's subjects are tougher

Well I guess lets just study study and study

Do my best

Put enough efforts

And let Allah decide what I should get

:)

Its my final semester

So lets just pass all the papers OK She?

;)

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Think & Think!

I'm going to finish my study in a month.

Yesterday I watched Pitch Perfect 2 and one of the character in that movie said she was afraid to finish her studies, she was afraid to face the next phase of life. 

And now I've been thinking the same thing.

I'm afraid too.

I'm not good in engineering.

That is why I have this fear of becoming an engineer later.

I keep thinking on what I'm good at.

Then I realized that,

I am good at NOTHING!

:(((

A bitter & sad truth of mine.

I don't know what kind of job suits me well.

Maybe I should pursue my studies in Japanese Language & be a translator or tourist guide or maybe a Japanese Language lecturer.

Should I?

I guess my passion in language is more rather than in engineering field.

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I'm Afraid

I think my heart has worsen

Black spots have occupied my heart

I'm afraid I might not be able to see the light anymore

I'm afraid my sins won't let go of me

I'm afraid of my current heart's condition

I'm afraid to die with this kind of heart

I'm afraid

Too afraid

But I still do the same sin over and over

Why?

How to stop this?

How?

:(

I hate myself for not be able to restrain from doing that sin

:(

Bad girl

Badddd :((

I need help

I really need help

:((

I know I need it

Please :(

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Tak Perlu

Perlu ke punya rasa seperti ini?

Perlu ke serabutkan fikiran dengan benda remeh-temeh ini?

Perlu ke buang masa fikir pasal benda ini?

Just take care of your own life, your own heart, your own feelings.

Let others with their own life and stuffs.

You are a big girl now.

Take care of your own businesses only.

But that doesn't mean you can harm other people.

Keep this in mind and heart, habluminallah wa habluminannas. 

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Why????

Why am I easily pissed off?

Why is it sooooooo hard to control this anger?

I just need someone to advice me on how to manage my anger.

Its not cool man to be like this.

Its pathetic!

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Heal Me

Something is not right with my heart

What happen to my heart?

Its getting darker and darker.

Help me to heal it, please?

I could not live with this kind of heart.

Its killing me.

Its killing people around me.

I'm afraid I might lose some good people in my life if my heart doesn't heal.

Please dear heart, lets heal u, heal me.

Positive thinking, positive views, positive about everything, I need them all.

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Kosong

Kekosongan memenuhi segenap ruang jiwa ini

Di mana cahaya?

Di mana jalan keluar?

Kegelapan yang makin gelap menghantui hari-hariku

Pergi kau wahai kegelapan

Biarkan cahaya sahaja yang memenuhi jiwaku ini

Aku kosong

Di setiap dimensi

Adakah aku telah jauh meninggalkan-Nya?

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Thank You :')

There is always a reason behind everything that happened

&

There is a reason why Allah sent someone in our life

Their story may change us

May make our view become wider

Allah sent this person to us to show that our test is not the hardest one

Somewhere some other people are bearing a harder test than us

&

That person can be very calm, redha and mettlesome with his/her tests

So, what is the reason for us to act so weak & complain about our little test?

Be grateful with everything you have in life

&

Keep in mind that Allah will only test us with a test which we could bear

It will never exceed our limit

Even we might think that we could not bear those test

Remember again, we could actually bear with it as Allah has said in suratul baqarah, verse 286

"Allah tidak memberati ( menguji ) seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya…. "

We can do it,

Be positive,

Always be positive.

:)

In sha Allah

Ya Allah, thanks for sending me this person

:')

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Be Human

Hidup setiap insan bernama manusia berbeza antara satu sama lain

Setiap manusia pasti mempunyai ujian yang tersendiri

&

Setiap ujian itu jugalah yang membentuk kita

Manusia tidak akan pernah sempurna

Tetapi kita seringkali inginkan kesempurnaan

Peliknya, kita inginkan kesempurnaan pada orang lain

Mungkin terlupa diri tidak sesempurna mana

Mungkin terlupa mencermin diri

Yakni, terlupa bermuhasabah diri

Mengapa mencari kesempurnaan andai sempurna itu hanyalah milik Allah?

Sempurna bagi pandangan manusia adalah tidak sempurna

Be human

Be a good one

Follow what has been guided to you by Allah

&

You will find peace

Even if you are not perfect in other human's eyes

:)

"Ketidaksempurnaan menjadikan manusia itu sempurna."

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Cool Lah ;)

IIUM has this one page called IIUM Confession

I love to read everything posted there

Except for any emotional, bashing or condemning posts

Most of the post was about love, jodoh, cari calon zauj/zaujah

Yes, at this age, that seems to be important to everyone I guess

But the weirdest thing is that I don't feel like marrying at this age

And I don't feel like to have anyone

Yaa, I do want to love and to be loved by someone

That is a desire everyone will have

But to be in a 'haram' relationship AGAIN

I am so not gonna do it

Enough with the past

I'm not gonna repeat the same mistake

The thing is why you want to be in that kind of relationship?

Its not certain the person you are falling in love is going to be your husband/wife in the future

Am I right?

Are you not having faith in Allah?

Our soulmate, ajal and rezeki has all been determined

There is someone out there who is made for us

Believe in that

But not to forget we might not meet our soulmate here in this world

Maybe we gonna meet our soulmate on the hereafter

Why?

Because death come earlier

Can't doubt bout that

Everyone will die

The question is, will it be before or after we meet our soulmate?

What is meant to be, will happen no matter what

Be cool

The time will come

Fast or slow

It will still come

:)

Nah dengar lagu ni, aku suka :p

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vu3n9iVqPxU

Some of the lyrics :D

Breathe deep, breathe clear
Know that I'm here
Know that I'm here
Waitin'

Stay strong, stay gold
You don't have to fear
You don't have to fear
Waitin'

I'll see you soon
I'll see you soon

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Ketidakmatangan Dahulu Menjadi Mimpi Ngeri Sekarang

Semua manusia pernah berada dalam fasa tidak matang lebih-lebih lagi pada zaman muda remaja,

Mungkin perbuatan mahupun percakapan pada masa itu tidak langsung dipertimbangkan dahulu sebelum dilakukan ataupun dilontarkan

Lebih-lebih lagi ketika sedang  mempunyai masalah, emosi, stress dll

Namun,

Apa yang aku tahu, ketidakmatangan itu telah membuat aku malu kepada sesetengah manusia yang aku pernah secara sengaja mahupun tidak menyakiti hati mereka

Sungguh aku tidak sedar apa yang aku lakukan ketika itu

Sungguh aku tidak tahu tindakan aku itu sungguh menyakitkan hati dan mampu membuat seseorang itu berduka dan bersedih

Sungguh aku malu atas apa yang telah aku perkatakan dan lakukan ketika itu

Maafkan aku

Maafkan atas ketidakmatangan aku dahulu

Sungguh, maafkan aku

:(

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