Throw It Away!

After I quit from my job and came back home, I realized that my temper is back again.
I easily pissed off even on small matters.
I'm trying my best to control it especially in this month, Ramadan.
I hope after this month ends, my temper will also vanish.
Be strong She.
U can do this.
Don't forget to always recite "ASTAGHFIRULLAHAL'AZIM" as many time as u can.

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Tasukete Kudasai

Dilemma

Its between letting your father married again

(Which I don't agree on)

AND

Staying with him so that I can take care of him and the house

(Which make him doesn't need to get married again)

I know my father well

I don't think he should marry someone else

That person will only be a burden to him

To us

Especially if that person is a widow and have kidssss

Bad me huh?

Naaa.

I think of the future of my father.

I mean not here in this world but hereafter.

Tasukete kudasai :(

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So Long Anong :'(

This entry is dedicated for someone dearest to me, Anong, my grandpa.

Last Thursday, 4th February 2016 at 7.10 pm, he left us. After being sicked for more than a month, Allah took him from us. Allah took him to a better place for him to rest. Its a heartbreaking when my sister called me saying Anong is no longer alive :'(

Anong or other people called him Tok Nor got his nickname Anong from us, his grandchildren maybe bcoz we are too lazy to call Tok Nor. We make it shorter by combining it, that is why it became Anong.

 

He helped my parents in raising us. He and my arwah nenek, Tok Bibi pampered and spoiled us so much. Well that is what grandparents do to their grandchildren. Their house is near to ours. Only 3 minutes away if travel by car. I can say that they came to see us everyday, especially after they had done their teaching. Yes, they were ustaz and ustazah. They gave us money for school. They took us out for shopping especially during Hari Raya. Yess, they helped a lot in raising us up. That is why I owed them much.

 

Back to my grandpa story. He is a very patient man I've ever known in my entire life. He never raise his voice. He is a man who constantly saying "thank you" for every single deed people did to him, even little ones. Even when he was sick and could not walk, he was hardly troubled us. I knew there are times when he was very sick but then he never complained about it to us. It was easy to take care of him. He just ate what we cooked and if it's good he will complimented it but if it's not good, he hardly critics on it.

 

He is the best grandpa to me even we are not blood-related. I love him so much that I cried when I knew he was sick when I was in Form 2. And now he really left me. I pray to Allah to take good care of him there and placed him among the pious people as he is a very pious man during his lifetime. Zikir is like a song to him. May Allah bless his soul. Aamiin.

 

Thank you Anong for your sacrifices and kindness. We owe you so much. I love you Anong.

 

Al-fatihah.

 

In memory ~Haji Nor Bin Haji Salleh~

 

 

 

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The Best is Yet to Come!

Sometimes I feel kinda jealous with girls who have a very polite attitude, words or everything in her.

AND

I'm jealous with those who can be istiqamah in their journey seeking for Allah's blessing.

I ain't like that.

I'm a harsh girl.

AND

Kind of a bad girl too.

Sometimes I do want to change and be that kind of girl.

But that just doesn't feel right, it feels like that wasn't me.

AND

When the bad me is showing her bad/dark side, sometimes I couldn't resist it.

Later on in future, I'm gonna regret it

Yes, I know that I'm gonna regret doing those bad things but then as I said,

its very hard to resist.

"Why should I try to be someone else when I can be myself?

Maybe I'm not at my best state yet as the best is yet to come."

-FS,2016-

Be grateful dear Syakirah.

Be like your name.

Grateful.

:)

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Another Wishlist to Achieve. Hope So :P

Morning!

So hari ni nak bercerita pasal wishlist seketul Syakirah.

Biasa la as a normal human being, I do have a list of stuff to achieve in my life.

Basically, I really need to get my driving license. Lol. 25 y/o already but still didn't have driving license. Loserrrrr!

Whateverrrrr :p

Then I would like to get braces. Yes2, I also want to get pretty smile bila tangkap gambar. Boringgg lah senyum tutup mulut je :p

But braces price is soooooooo expensive. Sobsob.

After I able to fulfill these two most important wishlish, then only I will go for my next wishlist which is TRAVELLLLLLLL!!!

I really want to go travel around the world but yaaaa, money constraint. So lets kumpul duit first. My dream place that I reallyyyyyyyy want to go is Japan and New Zealand. I love to see other countries' culture, environment. I love nature. So definitely I will be going to places with beautiful scenery and view.

Kahwin is not in my wishlist? Yaaa, not yet ;p

I'm trying very hard to put kahwin thing out from my head for now. Lets just focus on my career, getting a permanent job in a conducive environment company. Plus, I don't even have 'anyone' right now. So, lets justttt ignore first this kahwin thing :D

On top of those wishlists, definitely I would like to secure a good job lah. Need to work very hard for that. Trust Allah. He will help you :)

Well I guess that's all for this morning. See ya :)

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Confusion Hits Me!

Hi!

I'm still in confusion bout my own life.

What kind of job should I go for.

Should I just stay at my current company?

Or should I go and look for something more somewhere else?

I just don't know how to decide.

It is too tough to make this kind of decision.

Should I try working in my field?

But I'm afraid I could not adapt or will be stressed out working in that kind of environment.

Plus, I'm comfortable working in my current environment.

Dilemma hits me hard.

Please help me!

I hope my current company offers me a position after this.

I'm not that picky bcoz somehow I like to work here :)

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This is LIFE!

Nothing much to update.

Many things happened lately.

People come and go.

Well, that is life.

Either you like it or not, that is the reality you have to face.

Coz in the end, everyone will leave. Everyone will die. Nothing lasts forever in this world. Only Allah is eternal.

But then, people always forget that they themselves will somehow leave this world too. People only tend to realize on others leaving time but not theirs. 

Well, that shows how people love to watch over other people instead of watching themselves. Right?

So, let us watch over ourselves more.

OK? ;)

Maybe thats all for now.

Will update later if have time, space and internet of course :p

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