Yoshhhhhh!

I need some motivation to start writing my Final Year Project report

I am so lazy even to start

Dear She,

You are going to finish your study exactly in a month

Put your efforts in completing the report and study for your 2 more papers

After that you can just walk away from here

You are going to miss everything you did during your degree life just as you missed your primary and secondary life

Right?

Just do your best for these 3 more subjects

3 last subjects for your very LAST YEAR, LAST SEMESTER DEGREE

After this you are going to get a job

Move to next phase of life

But at the time being, just do your best to finish this degree

OK?

Ganbatte She!

You know you can do it right?

Make Abah & arwah Mak proud of you

You will be the first child in your family to get a degree scroll plus its an Engineering course!

Be proud of yourself, She

You know how you fear failing this course, right?

Now you just have to put a very little efforts (at least) just to complete this course

Just 3 more subjects to go out of  50++ subjects

Yosshhhhhhh!!!!!

~Thanks for reading~

First Day of Final Exams for Final Semester. Horayyyy?

I have done 2 papers for my final exam

Maths on morning while Japanese language on evening

I am totally exhausted after the Japanese language exam

The Maths exam was OK

It was just my brain that could not think properly

Maybe my brain has reached its limit as I've been studying non stop for the past 3 days

That was the first time I guess I studied that hard

LOL

I am proud of myself

For Maths paper I can say I had put enough efforts & now let Allah decide what grade should I get

:D

For Japanese, hehe

Lets see what I'll get later

I really really hope my results for this semester is better than last semester or maybe similar

But I know this semester's subjects are tougher

Well I guess lets just study study and study

Do my best

Put enough efforts

And let Allah decide what I should get

:)

Its my final semester

So lets just pass all the papers OK She?

;)

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Think & Think!

I'm going to finish my study in a month.

Yesterday I watched Pitch Perfect 2 and one of the character in that movie said she was afraid to finish her studies, she was afraid to face the next phase of life. 

And now I've been thinking the same thing.

I'm afraid too.

I'm not good in engineering.

That is why I have this fear of becoming an engineer later.

I keep thinking on what I'm good at.

Then I realized that,

I am good at NOTHING!

:(((

A bitter & sad truth of mine.

I don't know what kind of job suits me well.

Maybe I should pursue my studies in Japanese Language & be a translator or tourist guide or maybe a Japanese Language lecturer.

Should I?

I guess my passion in language is more rather than in engineering field.

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I'm Afraid

I think my heart has worsen

Black spots have occupied my heart

I'm afraid I might not be able to see the light anymore

I'm afraid my sins won't let go of me

I'm afraid of my current heart's condition

I'm afraid to die with this kind of heart

I'm afraid

Too afraid

But I still do the same sin over and over

Why?

How to stop this?

How?

:(

I hate myself for not be able to restrain from doing that sin

:(

Bad girl

Badddd :((

I need help

I really need help

:((

I know I need it

Please :(

~Thanks for reading~

Tak Perlu

Perlu ke punya rasa seperti ini?

Perlu ke serabutkan fikiran dengan benda remeh-temeh ini?

Perlu ke buang masa fikir pasal benda ini?

Just take care of your own life, your own heart, your own feelings.

Let others with their own life and stuffs.

You are a big girl now.

Take care of your own businesses only.

But that doesn't mean you can harm other people.

Keep this in mind and heart, habluminallah wa habluminannas. 

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Why????

Why am I easily pissed off?

Why is it sooooooo hard to control this anger?

I just need someone to advice me on how to manage my anger.

Its not cool man to be like this.

Its pathetic!

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Heal Me

Something is not right with my heart

What happen to my heart?

Its getting darker and darker.

Help me to heal it, please?

I could not live with this kind of heart.

Its killing me.

Its killing people around me.

I'm afraid I might lose some good people in my life if my heart doesn't heal.

Please dear heart, lets heal u, heal me.

Positive thinking, positive views, positive about everything, I need them all.

~Thanks for reading~

Kosong

Kekosongan memenuhi segenap ruang jiwa ini

Di mana cahaya?

Di mana jalan keluar?

Kegelapan yang makin gelap menghantui hari-hariku

Pergi kau wahai kegelapan

Biarkan cahaya sahaja yang memenuhi jiwaku ini

Aku kosong

Di setiap dimensi

Adakah aku telah jauh meninggalkan-Nya?

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Thank You :')

There is always a reason behind everything that happened

&

There is a reason why Allah sent someone in our life

Their story may change us

May make our view become wider

Allah sent this person to us to show that our test is not the hardest one

Somewhere some other people are bearing a harder test than us

&

That person can be very calm, redha and mettlesome with his/her tests

So, what is the reason for us to act so weak & complain about our little test?

Be grateful with everything you have in life

&

Keep in mind that Allah will only test us with a test which we could bear

It will never exceed our limit

Even we might think that we could not bear those test

Remember again, we could actually bear with it as Allah has said in suratul baqarah, verse 286

"Allah tidak memberati ( menguji ) seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya…. "

We can do it,

Be positive,

Always be positive.

:)

In sha Allah

Ya Allah, thanks for sending me this person

:')

~Thanks for reading~

Be Human

Hidup setiap insan bernama manusia berbeza antara satu sama lain

Setiap manusia pasti mempunyai ujian yang tersendiri

&

Setiap ujian itu jugalah yang membentuk kita

Manusia tidak akan pernah sempurna

Tetapi kita seringkali inginkan kesempurnaan

Peliknya, kita inginkan kesempurnaan pada orang lain

Mungkin terlupa diri tidak sesempurna mana

Mungkin terlupa mencermin diri

Yakni, terlupa bermuhasabah diri

Mengapa mencari kesempurnaan andai sempurna itu hanyalah milik Allah?

Sempurna bagi pandangan manusia adalah tidak sempurna

Be human

Be a good one

Follow what has been guided to you by Allah

&

You will find peace

Even if you are not perfect in other human's eyes

:)

"Ketidaksempurnaan menjadikan manusia itu sempurna."

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Cool Lah ;)

IIUM has this one page called IIUM Confession

I love to read everything posted there

Except for any emotional, bashing or condemning posts

Most of the post was about love, jodoh, cari calon zauj/zaujah

Yes, at this age, that seems to be important to everyone I guess

But the weirdest thing is that I don't feel like marrying at this age

And I don't feel like to have anyone

Yaa, I do want to love and to be loved by someone

That is a desire everyone will have

But to be in a 'haram' relationship AGAIN

I am so not gonna do it

Enough with the past

I'm not gonna repeat the same mistake

The thing is why you want to be in that kind of relationship?

Its not certain the person you are falling in love is going to be your husband/wife in the future

Am I right?

Are you not having faith in Allah?

Our soulmate, ajal and rezeki has all been determined

There is someone out there who is made for us

Believe in that

But not to forget we might not meet our soulmate here in this world

Maybe we gonna meet our soulmate on the hereafter

Why?

Because death come earlier

Can't doubt bout that

Everyone will die

The question is, will it be before or after we meet our soulmate?

What is meant to be, will happen no matter what

Be cool

The time will come

Fast or slow

It will still come

:)

Nah dengar lagu ni, aku suka :p

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vu3n9iVqPxU

Some of the lyrics :D

Breathe deep, breathe clear
Know that I'm here
Know that I'm here
Waitin'

Stay strong, stay gold
You don't have to fear
You don't have to fear
Waitin'

I'll see you soon
I'll see you soon

~Thanks for reading~

Ketidakmatangan Dahulu Menjadi Mimpi Ngeri Sekarang

Semua manusia pernah berada dalam fasa tidak matang lebih-lebih lagi pada zaman muda remaja,

Mungkin perbuatan mahupun percakapan pada masa itu tidak langsung dipertimbangkan dahulu sebelum dilakukan ataupun dilontarkan

Lebih-lebih lagi ketika sedang  mempunyai masalah, emosi, stress dll

Namun,

Apa yang aku tahu, ketidakmatangan itu telah membuat aku malu kepada sesetengah manusia yang aku pernah secara sengaja mahupun tidak menyakiti hati mereka

Sungguh aku tidak sedar apa yang aku lakukan ketika itu

Sungguh aku tidak tahu tindakan aku itu sungguh menyakitkan hati dan mampu membuat seseorang itu berduka dan bersedih

Sungguh aku malu atas apa yang telah aku perkatakan dan lakukan ketika itu

Maafkan aku

Maafkan atas ketidakmatangan aku dahulu

Sungguh, maafkan aku

:(

~Thanks for reading~

Be Happy :)

Sometimes we are happy

Sometimes we are sad

But that is life

Find your happiness

Heal your sadness

Live your life to the fullest

As life is too short to be wasted

Cheer up

Coz there is a rainbow after every storm or rain

:D

~Thanks for reading~

Aippp!

Penyakit sudah datang

Tengok kengkawan dah konvo

Jelessss

Tapi happy for them

Congrats korang

:D

And lagi satu tengok kengkawan kawen

Aaaarghhhhh

Ini 2 kali jelessssss

T.T

Tetiba rasa nak jugak calon sorang

Huhu

K, taw

Nanti ada laa

Nak ikot jalan cerita orang pasaipa?

Allah dah plan terbaikkk punya untuk aku

Buat pa nak kusutkan fikiran compare hidup dengan orang lain

Kan?

Just live your life to da fullest

OK?

Tapiiiii

Lepas 'dia', hati macam dah tak boleh nak suka orang lain

Kenapaaaa?

:(

Kbai.

~Thanks for reading~

23rd! Alhamdulillah :)))

20 July 1991-20 July 2014

23 tahun telah Allah berikan aku nikmat hidup

Nikmat bernafas

Nikmat sihat

Nikmat keamanan

Walau kadang2 ada ujian dan badai yang melanda

Namun ujian dan badai itu tidak mampu menandingi nikmat yang telah diberikan buat hamba yang kerdil lagi hina ini

Alhamdulillah

Syukur Ya Allah

Terima kasih atas segala yang telah Kau berikan kepadaku selama ini

Terima kasih kerana sering menjaga aku

Menegur aku tiap kali aku lalai dan alpa

:')

Moga diri ini makin matang dalam berfikir, bertindak, membuat keputusan etc

Moga diri ini juga makin dekat dengan Allah

Makin solehah, bertakwa, beriman

Makin hargai mereka yang ada di sekeliling aku

Makin sayang kepada mereka yang menyayangi aku

Makin rajin

Makin hilang sifat panas baran & dikurniakan kasabaran yang sangat tinggi

Makin sedar yang kematian kian mendekati diri ini

Aamiin

In sha Allah

:)

Dear mak, terima kasih kerana melahirkan She ke dunia ini..Walaupun mak hanya mampu membesarkan She sampai usia She 19 tahun, She dah rasa cukup bahagia. Sekurang-kurangnya Allah beri She rasa nikmat mempunyai & merasai kasih sayang seorang mak.

Thanks for everything u have done to me.

I miss u so much mak.

May Allah always bless u and protect u there.

In sha Allah She akan selalu mendoakan kesejateraan mak di sana.

al-fatihah

:')

Thanks Google for celebrating my birthday ;P haha

~Thanks for reading~

Dia Masih Sayang :')

Alhamdulillah

Allah boleh tegur kita melalui pelbagai cara

Mungkin antaranya melalui hamba-Nya yang lain

Melalui kata-kata mereka di facebook, twitter, blog etc

Aku harap apa yg aku baca tadi tersemat di jiwa dan minda aku

Mudah-mudahan Allah pelihara aku selama-lamanya

Kerna aku hanyalah hamba yang kerdil

Yang banyak melakukan dosa

Yang sering alpa

Kerna itu aku sangat perlukan Dia membimbing hatiku

Membawa aku ke jalan yang diredhai-Nya

Ke jalan yang mampu menjadikan aku hamba yang bertakwa

10 malam terakhir

Lailatulqadr telah pun tiba

Mudah-mudahan aku mampu bertemu dengannya

Moga aku istiqamah mengejarnya

Ya Allah, jadikan lah aku hamba-Mu yang bertakwa, yang solehah, yang bisa menjaga diri aku dengan sebaiknya, yang cintakan kebaikan dan membenci kemungkaran..

Ya Allah, selamatkan lah saudara-saudara seagamaku di Gaza, Palestine dan di mana-mana sahaja. Hancurkan lah zionis laknatullah dan balas lah perbuatan keji mereka dengan balasan yang setimpal.

Masukkan lah saudara-saudara seagamaku yang syahid di jalan-Mu ke dalam syurga-Mu dan berilah ketabahan buat keluarga mereka yang masih hidup.

aamiin Ya Robbal 'alamin

:'(

Sertakan doa ini dalam setiap sujud kita. Moga Allah mengampunkan kita :')

~Thanks for reading~

A Lil Mumbling!

Final examination is just around the corner

But me

Still lazying around

Downloading movies

Watching it

Sleeping

I am so good in wasting time

Hehe

:P

Ok, I should have realized that my first paper is on 28th May

Second one is on 1st June

Third is on 4th June

&

The last paper is on 7th June

I guess this is the first time my examination schedule got gaps like this

Usually there will be 3-4 papers in a row

No gap at all

Alhamdulillah this semester I don't have to suffer like the previous semesters

But

The momentum will be less

I can feel it now

Because my mind has set that "Ohh, you have gaps, still have time to study, plenty of time, no worries."

Scumbag brain strikes again -.-'

Please please please

Use your time wisely

This semester you should increase your cgpa a lot more

Can you do that?

Will you do that?

Yes?

Then go study!

:D

All the best to all of my friends for your upcoming exams

Rabbi yassir wala tu'assir

Lets strive for excellence!

<3

~Thanks for reading~

The Man I Need :)

As I grew older

Criteria for my prince charming has changed

All I need is someone who has a great sense of responsibility in him

Responsible towards his Creator, his Prophet, his family, the community, the environment

&

towards himself

That's all I need

I don't want a handsome guy but got no sense of responsibility

I don't want a tall guy but ignore his own family

I don't want a tough guy but he could not protect me from the hellfire

:)

~Thanks for reading~

Friendship!

Lots of things happened to me last few weeks

Lots of projects to be done

The reports

The assignments

The quizzes

And

While doing those things

There was an issue happened

But that thing taught me a lot

I realized

That is life

That is the reality

Somehow you have to go through those phases

If not now, you will face it later in your life

I value my friendship very much

But I am truly sorry for not being patient enough with you for your mistakes

I should have told you what your mistakes are

Sorry for being such a bad friend

I am truly sorry

I do love all of my friends

But sometimes we will have things that won't go according to our desire

These things have taught me to be wiser

To be more patient

But I hope for me to be like this

Please help me too by being a considerate friend

I am not a saint

I will never be a perfect girl

So, I just hope we can tolerate to each other

And

Please consider other people's situations too

Never forget that I love you

And

I will always make du'a for you and my other friends

With love, She

~Thanks for reading~

Wordless!

Maaf

Aku kecewa dengan mu

Aku sedih

Kerna

Aku sayang

Namun perkataanku tidak mampu mencapaimu

Maafkan aku

~Thanks for reading~